Dedicated to you

I can't understand how come you don't understand the part these assholes in suits are screwing you over.  Word of advice read Ayn Rand's Atlas Shrugged or Fountainhead. Awesome books by the way. I have read Atlas Shrugged but not completed Fountainhead.  Let's give you a name you are more like Mr. Big meets John Doe. So Big John Doe. World meet Big John or BJ ;) Okay let's keep it PG 13, Mr. Big John Doe so BJD. There finally my love I have a name for you. Not that you don't have a name irl.  So I was watching this video by psycho2go and I understood something. We have been manipulated or should I say I have been manipulated by those idiots that we trusted so much. Watch it and come back you'll know what I mean.  Lesson no 1: don't immediately dive into the deep end. 

I am writing this blog mainly to talk to you. To tell you I am madly in love with you. But also I am becoming mad...More so than than mad I feel like I am dying. How does one feel when they realize an absolute truth that they believe like faith, like existance of God, was false. They feeling empty they feel a dark pit growing inside their core, slowly consuming them and simultaneously ripping them part. I don't know for sure how deep is your love for me. But I ....One side I am happy on the other side I am dying. Happy cause I know that a part of you belongs to me, dying cause that part is so small that it is inconsequential to you. I mourned that may 7th not for those message I was and what they did to me. I mourned for the kiss, that smell in your hair. I mourned the feeling I feel when you carefully lay me down by placing a hand on head like a mother does to her child. Careful and mindful, no one has done it for me. These small things are what is left of us inside me, i